Day 1!♥

365 Days Project.

Day 1 - Time to Use my Diary/Planner. Lezzdodiz 2013!♥

Ottoke?

What to do? I don't know what to do with my life.

 Like I'm at lost, Like I don't know where to go. 

I know there are many roads to take in but I don't know which one is right for me. 

My family seem so supportive about everything, supportive of what they think is right for me. But I don't even know whats right for me. 

I pray to God that he will help me with this, I know he will. 

But right now I'm just so lost, 

I feel so alone and sad and just a mess. 

Here I am 3:57 in the morning feeling all crappy.

:( 

RN ♥

8.23.2012

Jernny M. Almaden, RN

Thank you for the Gift of Faith! Though, with worries and fears the faith deep inside me never wandered.

I was with my 2 bestie's in life Belle and Joot finishing our lunch, when somebody made a status in FB congratulating somebody else. So, there goes my two friends searching for the results while I was on the other side trembling and was on the verge of crying. Belle was scolding me not to cry because she will cry as well.

After like a minute of silence while staring at jojo, scrolling for the result. Both of them ran to hug me and I started crying. I was sobbing in a restaurant with everyone staring. Geez, Sorry friends for embarrassing you. haha! :)

Anyway, Thank you Belle and Jo for being there for me. You know I love you both.

To my family, who has always been there for me. Who always believed in me. Thank you! From earth to moon and back, I love you.

To my friends, with the undying support and for always encouraging me and for always telling me I'd make it. Thank you! I love you guys!


So many I love you's. haha!


But mostly, I offer this chapter of my life and for the remaining of it to Dadi God. 

To God be all the Glory!♥


Here comes another chapter of my life, Hello! Cheers!

My Sound of Serenity

Serenity Prayer


God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.


Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.







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Snooze: Life

When one day, all those kept feelings suddenly wants to get out of your system.

Because it is suffocating you. You feel like there is something big on your chest that you just want to ripped out so that you can breath normally.

When telling yourself "Breath and let it go" does not work anymore.

When the phrase "Other's have it worse" cannot keep you sane.

When all you want to do is cry and feel the moment of dejection.

When a hug of a friend will help you the most.

We all have those moments.

We all have those feelings.

And no matter how much people tell you "It will be okay" and you nod and answer back " I know", Deep inside it will still hunt you and as long as you do not find the way to deal with it, It will be just like a poison slowly killing you.

Yet..

After everything,  No matter how you detest it. You will still be one of those people who will have a smile on their face and tackle life as you know it.

- - -

We should attack life, It kills you anyways.

nouvel ami ツ

Old friends pass away, new friends appear. It is just like the days. An old day passes, a new day arrives. The important thing is to make it meaningful: a meaningful friend or a meaningful day ツ

Choice.

Everything we do in life is a choice, and I think most of us realize that. But what most people don’t seem to realize is that everything we don’t do in life is also a choice. Every day we choose to do some things and to not do other things.


Sometimes choosing not to do something is the wisest choice. However, there is a huge difference between choosing not to do something and choosing to do nothing.


Most people would like to change their life in one way or another. How about you?

     Uncle Sam is a newly open All American Restaurant located at Sto. Nino Street. Tacloan City. Grand opening will be around Mid August.

It’s actually my Second time to visit this Resto but the first time I went I didn’t have Cam with me and I realized I wanted to blog about something after we ate all the food. Lol. So when Kim texted and asked if we wanted to get some dinner with her and her boyfie and Since belle, jo and myself was out already GO ang peg =D Food yan eh. Hehe :)

     So when we arrived, we all had a hard time to choose from the menu. The menu looks so good that you’d be so confuse what to get, I wanted to order Asap coz the last time I ate at the place it took almost 25 minutes to have the food. I guess maybe because they’re all new that’s why, I was so patient the last time.

    Place is all American, with Uncle Sam Pointing at you. Lol. I find the floor outside so cute with all the stars. Inside, all the wall are framed with all this TV shows such as Baywatch, Friends, Glee etc. The ambiance is very relaxing, makes you feel as if your actually in a diner in US. While the Staff naman are all smiling and are very attentive J

    All of their Food Price ranges from P100-400

    So this is all the food we ordered. 

I. Lovely Strawberry ( I’m not even sure about the name)       

Basta 3 scoops of strawberry Ice Cream. Well, It’s Ice cream, it’s obviously Yummy. Haha!

II. This one is “ Baked Potato and Chicken Gratin”

We scored this 8/9 over 10. This is really good. Yum Baked Potatoes and that very tasty Gravy and the chicken in the middle is to die for. Flavoursome =D Presentation wise, it was ok but they just put a LOT of parsley’s noh? Haha.

But we ordered for another one ( That’s the one on the right) and it had different presentation meaning NaWaley ang plate. Why? Haha.

IV. New York’s Buffalo Wings, Rice Pilaf (Starch) + Salad of the day

We scored this 6/7 out of 10. The chicken was actually too sweet for me, there were 3 pieces of it so when I was on my 2^nd chicken my taste bud all go too sweetened up that if I ever eat many of this my taste bud would be fed up and I would prolly stop eating it. But don’t get me wrong it was tasty just too sweet.

V. Baked Mac & Cheese

We scored this 7 over 10. Typical Baked Mac. All cheesy balanced with creaminess. I was so full I didn’t even remember this so much.

VI. I’m sorry but I forgot the name of this. But this is some fried potatoes. 

Belle Scored this 5 over 10, she said it was very bland and that she could make this at home. Lol J

That would be it. I’m sure I’d visit again, There are way more room for improvements for this new resto I’m sure it will get better in time. I can’t wait to blog about it again when it’s all super good na. And oh they give us all this 

survey questionare which you can put comments on. I hope what we wrote can help them :)

    And here is a picture of us smiling so coy. I look so weird. Anyway, Chinese Community ba ito?! Jen!! You should be here! :D

Alexi's + Mt. Dew + Grey's = FUN!:)

     So after a long time of not blogging , I decided to write again and for the first time I’m gonna blog about something that I really love and it is about.. *drum rolls*.. FOOD!:) 

     So yeah, it’s a stated fact that me and my friends loves to eat whenever we go out and today we certainly did, Janelle texted us up to help her with something and that she’d treat us pizza after that. But I ran late and didn’t even get to help her (Sorry Janz) But still she treated us, we went to this epic pizza place here in Tacloban which is named * another drum roll*  “Alexi’s Pizzeria” haha. Which is by the way we conclude named after Alexis who is the Boyfie of Belle and also a friend of ours. Too bad he's in Manila.

Got this at the net :)

 Anyway, Belle and Janz got this Cheese pizza, and Jojo & I got Onion Beef Pizza. Janz wanted fries but didn’t know what to get and belle jokingly said get the 3 kinds instead, well she actually did. Hindi siya mahirap na kausap. Lol. And  we also got a pitcher of Mt. Dew. So when Jo arrived he got more fries, it was all seriously too much for 4 people but oh well, all we have to do was talk about Grey’s Anatomy (which we are big fan by the way) we all picked who our characters would be. Without argument I was “Meredith” Coz I am all dark and twisty daw, And Belle would be “Cristina” not just because in real life Belle is a good friend of mine just like how Mer and Cristina is but they almost look the same. Hahaha! And they are mean and crazy and weird in the same way :) and Janelle daw is “Lexie“ coz she has all this thing with hot men, like how she is addicted to azkals which of course most of the players are Hawt, and lastly Jojo daw is “Teddy” the Cardio Surgeon, not just because jojo loves cardio but he has this all weird and crappy lovelife (Chos, sorry jo J) like teddy!

                                         ME            as            MEREDITH = Lol

                                             BELLE                  as           CRISTINA

                                          JANELLE           as                  LEXIE

                                      JOJO                   as              TEDDY
   
     And since we all have our characters , all we did was to tease each other about it while eating all the food in the table, since I’m mer they we’re teasing me of having a “Hostile Uterus” and We we’re teasing Jojo how he's “ugly”, I know that’s kinda mean but Belle said Teddy is ugly when she cries, when she’s smiling. Lahat nalang, so we conclude Teddy is Ugly and therefore Jojo is. Hahaha! Chekka lang!=D If you watch Grey’s Then Relate na relate kayo! We were laughing all so loud and being funny and we realize were drinking so much that it made us all wonder why we were being high on Mt.Dew,we had 2 pitchers! As verbalized by Janelle “Someone spiked that Mt.Dew” coz we’re all acting drunk. So after finishing all the food, Janz had to go and Me, belle, Jo went to stroll lang around downtown. Until it’s time for dinner. Food much buh? ;D 


Next blog.. Uncle Sam!

compromiso cuestiones! Dos *.*

So I’m just hanging out with one of the bitches, Belle. Lol. We’re here are at  Cafe Lucia in Tacloban, She wanted to go to Starzrock Cafe but I like the ambiance here and It’s super near to our house. So eventually she was okay with us staying here, thanks for Cafe’s Amazing Carbonara. Anyway, This is supposed to be the part 2 of my 1^st post. Commitment Issues part two. If your reading this and don’t have any idea what this is all about go check my first post. Chos. Haha.

So continuation it is, After that Chos #1 lez go to number two.

Chos#2?

Well, Hm. That was one heck of a fast track relationship. I was thinkin of how scared and how hard it is for me to be in a relationship to Chos #1 but just after couple of months, I was with this guy. Honestly speaking. Face wise, he is the Hottest I went out with. He was so nice and very malambing but one hell of a shy guy. He was even shy goin inside freakin Mcdonalds. That was just “WTF Dude” moment.  But seriously he was nice and hot, so your thinking we could have been good off together noh? Nah. Now as I think back about it, All this time I’m telling myself and to everyone who asked why we broke up, I always end up with “I wasn’t just getting kilig anymore” Chosera ba ako?! Haha. Ansaveeh geerl? But behind that uber pathetic line was the truth that I was again scared to commit. I guess I tried so hard to find something within him that could lead us to separate ways, I did and I left him. Maganda lang ba? Parang Hindi naman. Lmao. He’s feelings was just so way up there, and mine was down under. I didn’t want to be unfair to him and most especially I didn’t want to admit I was scared to be on the same wave with his feelings.

Funny thing is this guy is related to my aunt’s husband. I did get to see him after on family occasions, which is awkward but I learned the art of deadma so It was okay afterwards. Buuut apparently after a few long months he got my number again and he started texting and stuff. To the point of asking me of why I broke up with him and etc, That time I felt like it wasn’t just suppose to be talked about anymore, it was a long time ago kasi. After a few days, He texted me not to bother him anymore which is later found out that it was his girl who texted me.  I was pissed at first coz I wasn’t the first person who reached out but oh what the hell, I forgot about it and didn’t mind na lang.

At the present my aunt and uncle still teases me about him, I just give a laugh every time they do so. And that guy is so bitter he’s acting like he doesn’t know me anymore. Anyareeeh kasi? Lol. I’m cool with it naman just makes me feel sad that this all happen because of this issue. Naman kasi . May part 3 pa ba ito? I don’t think so. I’m still scared and have issue pa rin but I have learned  na when to take a risk. Chosera. Learned daw :D

compromiso cuestiones! Uno *.*

compromiso cuestiones! Uno *.*

So as I was at Dunkindonuts after a barbeque meal with my two of my best friends, we sat down and started to talk about random stuff about everything and everyone.  One of those are the “issues” our circle of friends have concerning on being in a relationship.  Like how one of us has “trust issues”, other one has “intimacy issues”, “attachment issues”, ”Standard issues” and how my friend “J” was so frustrated because he can’t think of issue for himself. (maganda lang te eh!) and for myself “B” said I have commitment issues., I looked at her and I nodded and agreed.  It was actually the first time someone said that and I’m glad someone pinpointed that for me.

Commitment Issues?

Indeed. That’s the reason why every relationship I had never worked out. (chos, super many ba?haha)

To lay all my card of the reasons why I have commitment issues, I think it’s because..

1.       The epic fail marriage of my parents. Everyone who comes from a broken family could actually get me with this. I was 6 years old when my parents separated, my brother was 12. Imagine how hard it was for me to act innocent of what was going on.  I knew by that time everything would not just be normal. So I grew up with the thought of every relationship just won’t work out. No matter how u try hard for it.

2.       Because my Dad cheated not just once, but twice. Or so I know.

3.       And the many fail marriages and relationships I came to know more about in the coming years.

4.       How the people I know just Rant and rant of how being a relationship sucks. (lmao)

And so that’s why I came to have that Issue. Thinking about it all now, I never actually told myself that’s the problem. It’s always “I’m scared, or I’m not good at this or even we both suck at this” kind of reasons.

Let’s take Guy no.1 for an example

Chos #1. He was my 

first ever big crush back in old high school days. I met him through all those subdivision events, where I went out for the 1^st time after living in that place for 3 years to socialize with neighbours. He was tall and super cute (well, that time.) and I really got to like him, and I don’t know or maybe I forgot already how everything happened that we became an item. Like he actually liked me too, but we we’re so discreet then. My friends in that place didn’t like him for he was not just the stick to one of guy daw, I didn’t listen but that made me scared. I was thinking to myself “Omg, this is it” This is the sign that things will not go anywhere far from what I wanted to. But geez, for 2 years we we’re in a love and hate relationship.  He says he loves me and I’d say the same, next day I’d hate him and don’t want to ever see him. Those we’re the times when I was thinking I could handle whatever we have and that we never have to go official. But one sunny afternoon, we we’re texting.

Him: How’s

 your day? Blah blah blah blah

Me: Fine. 

Blah Blah Blah blah

*fast forward*

Him: ILYSM! J

Me: ILY too J

Him: Can’t we ever go official?

Me: I’m scared. Blah blah blah blah

Him: You don’t have to be. Just give it a try, Blah Blah

Me: No, I just can’t.

And to make the conversation short, that day I decided I can’t be with him because I just can’t commit. He said he’s goodbye, we ended up as friends. But dude seriously, that was so hard to get over it. It was my decision to be what we are. Months later I found out he has a girlfriend already. I was “oh, Okey. Really time to move on” But this Chos#1 was seriously hard to get over the years, I was always drawn to him whenever we talk, it was crazy. But somewhere between all those lines, I regret in some point. That I wished I just took the risk so that I’ll know what could have been of us.

So that’s my 1^st taste of my commitment issue.  I’ll get hold more of it later, finally bed is calling me to sleep. Chao J

Now on Myx: Lonely by 2ne1. Kmsta naman ang Title? Nangiinis ka? Buti nlang di kta magetz sandara. Lol J

And just because this picture looks awesome.